|Entry Numero Uno
||[Jun. 7th, 2010|02:17 pm]
i keep telling myself i'm too old for this blogging stuff, but lately, i realize that i may actually *need* it... and if i can help someone in the process, so be it! you see, i have been diagnosed bi-polar one several times over the course of my life, so, i guess it's a fairly accurate assumption. i used to be highly ashamed of my bi-polar, but it's really hit me lately that the more i hide it, the worse it will get. so, yes, i intend to use this journal to laugh, cry, and communicate the issues i deal with on a day-to-day basis.
i'm miranda, 28, married (to D), mother (of littleD). I love all kinds of music, movies, photography, internet... and *gasp* farmville. because of my bi-polar, i do not leave the house often. it's not that i don't enjoy sunshine, it's more that i fear people... even the ones i know that love me. i'm aware that my fears are irrational, but my brain does not allow me to combat them with logical thinking. i've been on effexor xr and abilify for several months and while i feel that it has helped with my general mood, i still don't feel as if i'm a functioning human. i have my next appt on thursday and i will address some of these issues with my clinician.